4 years back I wrote the "I Love You" with all my feelings & passion.
What's next? I keep asking myself...Some friends commented that the blog was kind of sobby, I do agree. The blog is actually something I couldn't get and I have to live with it.
Anyway, time past. The people involved in the story already started moving on, why shouldn't I?
These 4 years wasn't easy to me, I almost lost my life in some events & I almost lost myself in the midst of climbing the corporate ladder.
Fortunately, I was not drown by all the manipulations and I managed to survived as myself as at this point of time. I was writing the blog back then with a problem of intimacy, most of my friends left me since then. I have to apologies for being such "cold" to them.
In June 2008, I lost my best friend whom I never contacted since graduation and it kills me when the news of his departure due to road accident came to me. I blamed myself so much and I felt so bad for not being able to send him off at the funeral. All that, was my sub-conscious justification aim to make myself to feel better; which I never felt so.
I went on a trip with a purpose to go visit him. It was far and I hardly know the exact location of his tomb. I just keep walking and walking in the middle of nowhere...I kept on whispering "Bro, I’m here. Where are you? Will to me...” Eventually, I found the place and I couldn't stop crying the second I met with him. Tears just came out and I could hardly hear what I told him.
I shared with him special lyrics which I cherish... "I'll come back, when you call me, no need to say goodbye..."I promise to him that from now onwards, I will be visiting him once every year and I will keep on going until the day I depart.
"I haven't done anything grand, there may not even be a place for me when I draw my last breathe. But as long as I’m living, I will be seeing you and let me know if you need anything. "
"I'm sorry for all the delay and I willing to accept my atonement for these...."
I considered the visit as a gift by God, allowing me to be able to see him again. I could have failed to look for him but I did anyway. Thank you, Lord, blesses him and protects him. Let me suffer for him; let me take the burden….
I never forget that visit, and I have planned the next trip. Bro, wait for me. I’m sorry I didn’t bring anything for my first visit; I promise to you, we will be having a long talk on my coming visit….I promise…
So, here I am. I remember my vow on a recent training; I vowed to be a better person, to forget about the past and start moving on. I want this comeback to be a rebirth of my very own era…
Bro, you’ll see…I’ll make you proud!
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